... I love the rain ...

A dream. I really wanted this to be one. You are very beautiful today. In that white satin, you looked somewhat pure. It was elegant, the way you walked down the boulevard of pink cherry blossoms aisle with your coal black hair let loose, having curls at the bottom. Ah...your wearing that necklace I bought you, but why? It's funny how I came to buy it. It called to me, that 14 carat diamond necklace, it would look good on you. That's honestly what I had running through my mind. Seeing it on you now, it's pale in comparison to your angelic smile.

I let out a sigh, as you father handed you in. Patting the back of your palm, covered in a fine piece of white silk. You were so close to me, as I was to the man holding you now. The man who is to share his last name with you. I'm just the 'best' man. It annoyed me, how the both of you were smiling ear to ear trying to hold back that laughter filled with happiness and joy. He's an architect in the Quill Company, Greenland branch. Me? I'm just some lecturer in a torn down university. ''He's very ravishing....", that's the only thing I forced myself to say when you first introduced me to him. The priest was saying all those boring stuff. My eyes were locked onto one single thing. You. But you never caught me staring at you, not once...you never saw me, did you?

"Do you take this man as your husband?", the dude in black dress asked you. I felt like sinking my fist with utmost force into his face at that very instant. "I do!", you said. Upon hearing those words, I felt only one thing. Pain. It was excruciating. It felt like a million, if not a thousand needle like ice fragments piercing through my chest. Cold. I couldn't sense a modicum of warmth in me. The crowd cheered as the both of were in each others arm, exchanging soft kisses. There she goes... I lost you for good. At that moment, the only thing I felt was lust infused with greed. I realized I wouldn't be the one lending you a hand taking that white wedding gown off that night. It wouldn't be me who is going to unbutton your dress from the back, brushing my hands down under that white piece of satin of yours onto the back of your soft and snow white like bare skin. I felt a faint sense of shame at the thought that went in my mind then. I craved a devilish smile.

The crowd cleared out, people into the hall to get a piece of the wedding cake I guess, but not me. I was too busy watching over as you walked away with your husband wrapping his arms around your small waist. My sight was getting blurrier by the second. You're so very beautiful. It was a sin to love you. The fingers on my right hand automatically places it self over my eyes onto my forehead covering the pearl like tears that kept flowing down.".....but I loved you"

Who's the best person to get drenched in the rain with?

5.30...I woke up to 'Need you- Travis McCoy' as it was my alarm ringtone. I pulled my self up, my upper body in a sitting position with my legs still 'asleep'. I was still drowsy and it was so very tempting to lay back, curled up in my duck feathered comforter. I succumbed. Using my body weight I pushed myself back, with the idea of having my head beat into my fluffy pillow soaked in the scent of my drool. But I guess, I'm destined to be in pain. My head hit the upper frame of my bed. Hard. Pain. Excruciatingly sharp. I wasn't drowsy no more, the back of my crown was pretty numb. I made my way to the kitchen and got some water to be boiled. It's a small favor. That way my mom can make coffee straight away. She makes the best wake-up coffee. The aroma of coffee infused in milk is just so very seducing in a weird way. It makes you wanna just lock your lips onto the tip of that white mug and enjoy every single sip as it makes it way down your throat warming up your chest. Well, after the usual bath, brushing and other preparations before school, I decided to walk to school. Just had the feeling of having a brisk walk along the road where there's the musky smoke from the school bus in the air, the dew drops falling causing you to sneeze and just hoping that car with 'you' passes by.

This whole week is to be wasted on registration for co-curricular stuff, today, THURSDAY was sports. I had a little confusion. I wanted to represent my school's badminton team this year, but there's chess. I can't just walk out, not after being the Vice President. So, I ended up sticking with the nerds.....chess that is. I was pretty surprised that the amount of students who registered were more than a handful. Since when was chess popular? After two periods, studies will continue as usual. My class had Chemistry. PEKA!!! It was pretty stressful. My graph of temperature against the rate of reaction wasn't really perfect. There was nothing I could do....it's the result my group obtained and we can't change as of when we like to. Disappointed, after another experiment we went back to class. It was supervision. However, our class teacher had different plans, she got us our 'BORANG PENDAFTARAN SPM'. Smoothly and swiftly I filled up the blanks and other required details using my blue ball point Faber-Castell pen. It dawned upon me, I'm in form 5. I've got SPM. I'm gonna be 17. It's gonna be 'your' last year. I'm probably not gonna see you ever again...I wanna tell you how I feel about you but I can't. I'm not allowed to I guess. I placed both my arms on my blue desk, wrapping each other, pushing them forward, making my usual 'pillow'. I sunk my face in onto it when the bell rang. It was recess. I was famished...I grabbed my so-called California Apple and gave it a violent bite. The scent of the apple was as sweet as it tasted. I licked the juice that was dripping out from where I pierced my teeth into earlier. I got up and out to 5 Murni to see a friend.

FYI, there's this very intelligent kid in 5 Murni. She always gets first in class and in the form. I always looked up to her and thought if we were ever friend we would be talking about biology or something. Ironically, it wasn't academic stuff that got us into conversations but korean pop stars! TVXQ, JYJ and other guys who wore make up....XD. Today, was a PEKA filled day. After lazing around an extra period after recess I remembered that I was supposed to be down in the Bio Lab for an experiment. Luckily, the teacher didn't notice my late entry. Yet again, my marks weren't full. I forgot to write about the technique and lost a point. Haiz...The whole class forgot about the A4 paper for the cross-section and longitudinal-section diagrams. Everyone had to go around begging for some....my fate was similar. Finally, when everyone had it, the bell rang. Period ends, it's Add Math next. Oh GOD!!!! We were asked to hand in out PEKA before going back home, god it was a pain in the ass.

When I hoped for things to get a little bit better, it just gets worse. Homework and paperwork keeps piling up, to the already stacked up homeworks. I got really mad and decided to sleep off the last lesson. It was sejarah, nothing important....just the same old notes and stuff. For 35 minutes, I enjoyed my sleep peacefully without any interference. Then, it was time to get up and go home. It was raining. I love the rain. Always have, always will. This year my neighbor and I have been walking back home together, and we did the same this afternoon. It was really funny. I told her that I liked today rain because it smells clean. I liked it because it drops of water fell on my skin with the right amount of pressure. It wasn't irritatingly sharp or painfully heavy. It was perfect. She laughed, that's about the only thing I've ever seen her do. Then, I said,"Did you know? In Japan if it was raining, and you shared an umbrella with a guy, it will be perceived that you're in a relationship with that guy". "oh....", that's what she said. But she was a little surprised. Then I asked her do you know who's the best person to get drenched in the rain with? She just shook no. I took a deep breath and said ,'It's the person you're in love with' in a low clear and sad voice.

I would really wish to walk with you in the rain....

Electrochemical Series

This conversation takes place in a certain place between two people (lovers), a girl and a boy;

Boy: What's wrong? I don't get it....why are you breaking up with me?

Girl: What can I say, there's just no chemistry bet...

Boy: What's with there's no chemistry, physics or add math ?! We're in a relationship! Not some pop quiz!!

Girl: Fine. I'll be honest, I'm seeing someone else.

Boy: o_O...Who? How? Why?

Girl: It's boy 2. He's just everything I wanted you to be...Sorry;p

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Have you been in a relationship where you were cheated on or replaced by someone else? It does hurt doesn't it when the person you love leaves you for someone else, and when you demand for a reason all they can say is, 'There's just no chemistry'. It really pisses you off no?

Little did you know, it actually is chemistry! Some of you reading this, can understand the electrochemical series above, some of you don't. So for those of you who are still scratching your head, here's a quick chemistry lesson. On the left hand side are the positive ions, which are metals. There stronger metals are at the bottom getting weaker as the go higher.On the right hand side are the negative ions. NOW, here's the important part. There's something called,'metal displacement', where stronger metals replace the weaker ones. Now, let me give you a compound, NaCl also known as sodium chloride which is salt. Refer to the table to identify Na+ position. When NaCl is placed in a solution, CuSo4, copper (ii) sulphate solution. Refer to the table to identify Cu2+ position. Since, Cu2+ ion is lower than Na+ ion, copper (ii) ion is stronger than Sodium ion and is able to displace it forming CuCl2.

What's this got to do with relationships? Well, if you're being cheated on, it simply means the third person is 'stronger' than you, hence, replaces you! Well, this is just for fun, nothing serious.^^

Only 24/30 for rumusan...so sad

http//zero.facebook.com. Inilah laman web yang sering dikunjungi remaja kontemporari. Mereka akan meluangkan masa yang panjang untuk mengemaskini status mereka, 'poke' rakan-rakan mereka dan sebagainya. Kesannya, mereka kurang melibatkan diri dalam perkara-perkara yang bermanfaat dan akhirnya menjadi sampah masyarakat. Remaja merupakan aset sesebuah negara. Terdapat beberapa ciri remaja yang cemerlang.

Membaca jambatan ilmu. Remaja yang cemerlang sudah pasti menghargai ilmu pengetahuan. Ini kerana, dia sedar akan manfaat yang dapat diperoleh daripada menelaah buku-buku ilmiah. Membaca merupakan prasyarat bagi remaja cemerlang. Sedangkan rata-rata anak muda membazirkan wang ibu bapa mereka melakukan perkara-perkara laknat, seorang reamaj cemerlang akan bijak menggunakannya untuk membeli buku-buku ilmiah seperti, "The Outliers","Reader's Digest","Kuntum" dan lain-lain lagi.

'Masa itu emas', merupakan antara falsafah hidup remaja cemerlang. Remaja cemerlang akan mengisi masa lapang dengan melakukan perkara-perkara berfaedah. Misalnya, menyertai kelas seni ukir, menganyam dan kraf tangan. Kemahiran-kemahiran sebegini yang menjadi acuan untuk membentuk seorang remaja yang holistik dan cemerlang.

Selain itu, seorang remaja akan menjadikan rukun negara serta wawasan negara sebagai wawasan diri. Kesopanan dan kesusilaan serta moto 1 Malayisa; Rakyat didahulukan, pencapaian diutamakan akan disanjung tinggi seorang remaja cemerlang. Dia akan mengamalkan budi bahasa, berbakti kepada masyarakat dan sentiasa sedia membantu golongan yang tidak berkemampuan.

'Otak yang cergas terdapat pada badan yang cergas'. Remaja cemerlang akan mengamalkan gaya hidup yang sihat. Contohnya, melibatkan diri dalam sukan yang agresif, mengamalkan tabiat pemakanan yang sihat dan menjauhi aktiviti-aktiviti yang boleh memudaratkan kesihatan seperti merokok, menagih dadah dan mengambil minuman beralkohol.

Kesimpulannya, setiap anak watan haruslah mengambil inisiatif untuk menyemai ciri-ciri remaja cemerlang pada sanubarinya. Ini dapat melahirkan model insan yang sempurna dan sekali gus meningkatkan sosioekonomi negara. Tahap kestabilan politik, kemakmuran ekonomi, kecemerlangan pendidikan. kesejahteraan sosial dan kecanggihan industri Malaysia akan setaraf dengan negara-negara maju seperti Kanada. Perancis, Jerman, Jepun, Amerika Syarikat dan Rusia. Dapatlah kita "Berdiri sama tinggi, duduk sama rendah" dengan mereka.

(I'm suguz student^^)

What should I blog about?

It's a Friday morning. It's raining. It's cold. Really cold. I don't really know what to blog about. I'm sitting in front of my computer, turned my head towards out of the window pane, looking at the Bangladesh dude cycling pass my house, with a heap of plastic bottles tied to the back. I got almost all my results back, 9 out of 10 papers. Overall, it's alright but I'm not satisfied with it. I seriously think I'm academically deteriorating, simply because I'm too busy wasting my precious time thinking about 'some sakai'. Kesian myself.... Starting off with my worst ones, add math. I got a depressing 76%. If only I had pay more attention in class, I would have known to give my answers in 4 significant figure and not 4 decimal place. Haiz haiz....Next, BM i got an A^^, although it was a weak 81% I'm happy. Followed by math and biology, both As' 86%. Physics was cool, I scored 40/40 for my essay section, but got an overall 82%. chemistry was a little disappointing, I only managed to muster out a weak 84%. This end term, I got the highest score for account, hahaha!!!! 88% a little more and it could have been an A+. Moving on, so far I only got 2 A+'s and that for History and Moral. 91% and 90% respectively. According to my neighbor I got 70 something for both my sivik and kesihatan paper. What about english? GOD knows, as usual it's still in pending. Mr. Aziz says it'll be out on Monday, hope I get an A. At the end of this post, I ended up crapping about my results.

Two down eight more to go.....

Today, is the second day of my end term examination.....haiz haiz.....Friday was my Accounts paper an god it was hell. My first question didn't balance and I didn't have much confidence with the remaining questions. That's paper II. Paper one was a serious joke, upon seeing the first question I was relieved, but the next 9 questions...I left it blank. Well back to today's paper, I only knew paper one was karangan 10 minutes before the god damn paper! I freaked out! The questions were not bad but still there's always that slight feeling of anxiety when you're doing your papers. After recess was paper II. By and far the paper was okay I would say. I could do the ringkasan, wrapped it up in only 114 words^^, pemahaman umum wasn't bad....Sadly I couldn't answer all the 'apakah maksud rangkaian kata' questions. I think we were lucky with the set of words given in at the bina ayat section. It was known words and pretty straight forward. The simpulan bahasa part was a joke.... I wrote the similar answer for the first and second question and they're probably wrong~ I'm confident my last answer is right ! BERDIRI SAMA TINGGI, DUDUK SAMA RENDAH!! The novel was shitty....why? I forgot about it....totally....had no time to revise. I just hope I can muster out an A.

I can't even express a modicum of my feelings to you...

On the long, sleepless nights, the feelings I send you whisper "that is love"

continuously shaking speech that moves you to tears changes into a slight fever mingled with a sigh

Give me a smile and shiny days,

by your smile I can withstand the cold of a frozen night,

Whoever you love, your feelings reaches them right?

Don't say I'll be fine, your words are dancing in space

The further apart you go, the more I chase you

The more my heart feels the cruel distance

Even if my love reaches the breaking point, 1/3 of it won't reach

My true feelings are just spinning on air, my heart isn't even saying "I love you"